MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone.

Its Christmas and it certainly don't feel like it. Its just my luck that I've been sick and haven't been feeling so good. I've got the cough and flu and its totally killing me. I've had it for a while now and I'm not getting any better.

I've been addicted to this application in FB called Pet Society. My pet is called Juicy and the point of this game is to take care of your pet and have the best looking house out of all your friends. My house is still average looking at the moment but I'll get there soon =D. I would spend hours and hours just playing this game. I am so addicted.

6 in the morning

Woohoo I broke my record =D . I finally slept at 6am in the morning. I don't know how I did it but I did it. I didn't even plan it or wanted it to happen that way. But I wasn't even one bit sleepy throughout the whole time. I was pretty much still wide awake.

I blogged, played on my brother's DS, listened to music, gossiped with my siblings and YES I SAW THE SUNRISE. It was gorgeous. I LOVE IT. It was the nicest thing I've ever seen. I regret not taking a picture of it.

When I told my brother about this he gave me a very ugly expression. Stuff u, Kevin hahah. And I won't dare tell my parents because they would just kill me. So they better not be reading this blog where I reveal things about myself that they shouldn't know. Talking about my parents who both have FACEBOOK and who likes stalking their daughter's profile or change of status. If you are reading it though, Mum and Dad, it was just one time, I won't do it again XPPPP.

that's not my name

Its been a while since I've blogged and there's been a lot going on. So u better be ready, this is gonna be a pretty long post.

Well first of all, the reason I haven't been blogging is because I've been out full-on in these past few days to meet and catch up with my friends and cousins. It was good. It was fun and I got two stories to tell you.

-me,priscilla (cuz),ashley (cuz) and jessica (sis)-

On Monday December 15th I went to grand indonesia to meet up with my bitch, Amanda. I haven't seen her in ages. When i got there, i was looking for her and could not find her (gosh, it was so hard to find you, manda). The reason was that this mall was so huge that we were both confused as to which direction we were suppose to go at. Then suddenly, me and my sister, we were just walking not knowing where we were going, and we spotted her wearing a black top and a denim skirt near the escalators. It was good seeing her. We went into fitting rooms and tried on some dresses. As usual, we took a lot of pictures and ended up spending quite a while in there.

Everything was all good until this random guy started talking to me and acted out as if he knew me. Me, my sister and Amanda, we were walking out of this department store towards another shop which was very close by to an escalator. This guy who was already half-way up the escalator started looking at me and had this expression on that totally confused me. It was like as if he was calling me. I thought he was looking at someone else but I looked around and it was definitely me he was looking at. He started saying to me "Hey, whatcha doing here?". I wasn't afraid to answer as many thoughts were going through my head. I said to him "Oh, I'm just walking around and hanging out.". Then I looked at the direction of Amanda and questioned her with a confused expression. I thought she knew him or something. Or I thought it was one of my brother's friend who just happen to know me. He asked me one last question before he got too far up the escalator. He said to me this time "Is it just the 3 of you hanging out?" and I answered him with a YES. But all of my assumptions were wrong. I didn't even know him. I looked up from where I was and I saw his friend looking at me, laughing. I thought that was pretty freaky. I figured that his friend dared him to do that. In a way, it sorta made my day. It was hilarious to have a stranger just come up to you and act so confidently towards you. I found it very funny. And not to mention that the guy was pretty HOT too XPPP.

And today on December 16th I went to Senayan City to meet up with my other bitch, Devina. She was somehow hard to find too. She didn't know the place very well and so it took a few phone calls just to find her. We were wearing somewhat the same type of clothing. I was all dressed up in checkered and so was she. We decided to watch Twilight because everyone I knew said it was good. They fell in love with EDWARD CULLEN. I didn't know who he was and I've never even read the books. The cinema was full of people, everyone wanted to watch the movie. I was excited to see it after hearing all the rage about it. I went into the cinema ready to see Edward Cullen.



Throughout each scene, I expected more and more things to happen. But they just didn't happen. I didn't really like the movie but I didn't hate it either. I totally agree though that the guy who played Edward Cullen was pretty hot. However, I didn't feel the romance in the movie at all. I don't know if it was mixed up with my mood at the time I was watching it but I definitely did not feel it. I said this to both my sister and my friend. They both just ended up calling me unromantic and hard to be charmed by. And I guess its true in a way. But I can totally be romantic, just not as they see it.

I must read the book series for this movie. A lot of people say its better than the movie. It wasn't a bad movie but I just wished there was more to it u know. Talking about twilight I'm addicted to the quotes from the movie. They're so sweettt.



I swear to God I felt like I ate so much today.There was the Vanilla Blend + Coffee from Starbucks (thx to whoever suggested me to drink it because it was sooo nice XD and to know how much I hate vanilla hahah XP), bits of tortillas that I grabbed from my sister's lunch, 2 pieces of garlic bread, a number of pizzas and a pinch of my friend's Sour Sally. And talking about Sour Sally. Something excruciatingly funny happened while I was there. I ordered a twist yoghurt with some additional toppings and whenever we order we must also give our names so they can call us up when our food is ready. I decided to make up a name because I didn't feel like using my real name. My friend, Devina suggested to me that I use the name Dolce. And so I did. I told the guy what I wanted and used that name instead. At first, he didn't hear me. He asked me what it was again and gave a little laugh. I said it again but I still didn't know if he heard me right. I saw him typing on the register and so I got my receipt and waited for my Sour Sally.



When my food was ready they called me up. This time a girl called me and I heard her call me by the name of "Dolce" which was right. And so I walked up to her confidently and got my Sour Sally while giving her a smile. I didn't realise but my sister had a WTF look on her expression. I asked her 'Was there something wrong?" and she said to me "That girl just called you by a weird name, are you sure that's right?". I looked at the receipt. I know that I got the right one because I looked at the additional toppings I added to my yoghurt and it was exactly right. I didn't realise at first but the guy who wrote my name obviously didn't hear me correctly. Instead of writing the name "Dolce", he wrote "Tonceng". Woaaa what a big difference from the real name. How could he make such a silly but totally hilarious mistake? I laughed so hard until I couldn't breath anymore and so did my sister and Devina. That girl had just called me "Tonceng" and I didn't even know it. I thought she said "Dolce" but I didn't hear her right. What made me laugh so hard was the mistake that he had made and the name I ended up with. I seriously did not stop laughing the whole time I was there. He didn't even question me about my weird made-up name and happily wrote it on the receipt. And after this happened I just thought of a really good idea. The next time I go to Sour Sally again or whenever I go there, I will use a very weird name just for the fun of it XDD.



When I got home I got straight back into my boredom mood. Once again, me and my sister turned up the music and danced like we've never before. We enjoyed dancing to Chris Brown's song "Forever" so much that we decided to do a dance routine for it using youtube. It turned out pretty funny and cool. It took a very long time for us to learn it but it was a good thing that we did. It was fun and we totally burned some calories from doing that. It wasn't the whole routine but we got all the moves we wanted. You never know, if we have mastered our dance routine, you might be able to see it on youtube XD hahah.

I've got a lot more to say but this post has been long enough and so I will save it for next time.
Its 3:54am in the morning. I don't know why but I always end up blogging at a very late time. I like it better this way. But I should be getting some sleep at this time.

love to u all.

December10.

Its been two days without internet and that was such a drag.

Tomorrow is going to be a really good day for me.
1. I can finally hangout with my cousin
2. My bitch is coming from Australia

Today I spent most of my time at home, having dance sessions with my sister. We started dancing and both our brothers joined in just to mock our dance moves. It was fun in a way. And btw Kevin I do not dance with my arms out like that u ass XPP.

I will be turning 16 in a month and I've been planning my party. I want it to be special, I mean its my SWEET SIXTEEN. I want to have a nice party with all my beloved friends. I need to find a simple dress and send out pretty little invitations. I know I won't be able to have a huge party seeing that all my friends aren't here and so it will just be a nice dinner with friends and maybe we could go clubbing too. Once I get back to Australia I will celebrate it again with a real party. For some reason I want an ice-cream cake this time but I won't fuss about it too much right now because its still quite far awayy.

And I've just realised that I don't have the time to blog everyday and so I won't be recounting everything thats happened during my holidays. From now on, I will just blog when I feel like it and in this way I won't have to post anything unimportant or uneccessary.

December9.

I've forgotten everything thats happened today maybe its because i'm too tired.
all i know is that we had a blackout and me and my family stayed in one room that survived the blackout. It was my room. Out of all the other rooms in my 4-storeyed house only my room was alright.there was very little light and it was very dark.

And then I had another dance session with my sister. It was good. We turned up the music even louder this time and it was like as if we were in a club. We were planning to go clubbing next time. It will be so muchhhh fun.

on a random note.

While i was on my laptop checking out my Facebook, my big brother said to me
"Where is your maskra, Helen?". He looked at me with a funny face.
I looked at him with a funny face back.I just started laughing not knowing what he was going on about until he started touching his eyelashes. Mmm its actually MASCARA u stupid hahaha XP.

December8.

Well it turns out that today was a public holiday and so we had no drivers. What I had planned was all cancelled and I couldn't meet up with my cousins. That sucked real bad.

I just stayed at home all day because everyone else in my family was sick. And soon enough I would be sick like them too.

At one point, I got so bored that I did a french manicure on myself which took me about an hour. I wanted to make it look perfect but I kept smudging it. Which reminds me that I really need a new french manicure set because this one is getting kind of rusty.

And since I haven't been following my exersice routine which was the workout sessions with my cousin, me and my sis, we decided to do a dance session together. We turned up the music and we danced all night long. I'm not a dancing person at all, but it was pretty fun and its good for getting fit. Everyone's got their style of dancing, whatever it is, its your style, your own uniqueness.



After all that dancing, I was so tired I left the music on but changed it into something more mellow and slow. I slept still with the loud music on. It was nice. I liked sleeping like that. Music is good for the ears XD.

December7.

I always take my time in waking up especially when school is not around. I mean, what's the rush? Its the holidays. Time to laze around and enjoy the limited time of freedom you've been given.

I've just been spending my days shopping and thinking.

I went to shop at Pacific Place today. There's this really nice bookstore called Ak-Sa-Ra and because I didn't get a lot of time I must go back there. I could spend hours in there just looking for a book. Its like such a unique bookstore. I love it. But I bought these these shoes today. They're ok. I haven't seen a good shoe that I really like in ages.

But its ok, tomorrow on Monday I have booked my cousin so I can hang out with her. Didn't that just make her sound important? Well yes of course I gotta book her otherwise her friends will take her away from me. And I'm not gonna let that happen. I haven't seen her for a year and I've missed her heapss. We need our 'together' time. Me and my cousins, we're like sisters. We basically know everything about each other heart and soul.

We're planning to go to Grand Indo again and also its neighbouring mall, EX. I would say they're two of my favourite shopping malls because they're so complete and they have the nicest stuff ever over there.

And the thinking...I've been thinking lots about my other half. I'm at a stage where I feel confused and don't know what to do. But I know I'm gonna get through this. I know I will. Life's too short to think negative and to not feel happy about anything.

If anyones reading this, you might not understand it but you will someday when you're going through the same thing. Or if you do understand, it doesn't feel good does it? But u got to think positive. Everything will be all right in the end. That's how I will think from now on.

I've stayed up for too long blogging. I better get some sleep. I'm gonna have some fun tomorrow with my beloved cousin, Ashley. And for my other cousin, Priscilla, it will suck without u, so next time you better come hahah.

December6.

I don't know how many times I gotta say it but I am cravinggggg for a blackberry. I seriously cannot do some intense shopping without seeing someone on their blackberry. I want it so bad that basically everyone I know knows that I want one. Ok I'll stop my bragging about the Blackberry. I just had to let my 'blackberry love' out to everyone.

I went to Grand Indonesia today. Its a very nice shopping mall. I went into this shop called Forever 21 and tried on a few clothes. I bought this simple green top after trying on like about 10 other tops. I must say I'm quite a picky person when it comes to choosing an outfit. When I try on clothes I look at each angle just to see how I look in it.

I was so tempted to go to every store but the mall was just too huge I would have to spend a veryyyyy long time to visit each shop there. So yea I pretty much spent a whole day shopping and walking through the stores in Grand Indo.

Its been a week in here and I miss perth just that little tiny bit. I don't know why. Sometimes I even feel like its better there than here. I've lived in Perth for about 8 years or something like that and being here just feels different even though this was where I was born. I miss its simplicity of life and also its peaceful and quiteness because I need that kind of 'mood' sometimes when I'm not feeling so good.
But I guess its good here too. I'm just not used to it, that's all. This city is busy, places are crowded and unwanted attention is always there. I guess I'm just living in 2 totally different worlds and its a learning experience for me. I get to know just what its like living between 2 different cultures.

December5.

im tired,hungry and i feel extra lazy today so please bare with me.

today-
-stayed home the whole day playing "Cooking Mama" on my bro's DS
-went to this church thing (i went just coz my grandparents told me to and i wudn't want to break their hearts)
-met my cousin and her boyfriend there (veryyy cute couple)

thats it.it was a pretty boring day today.

December4.

Today I did some shopping but as usual ended up with nothing. I don't know why but I was pretty much pissed off the whole day. Maybe it was because the bragging my mum kept on going with or maybe it was the couples I saw who kept passing me that proves to myself how much I missed my other half.

But I did try this reallyy nicee yoghurt called Sour Sally, I went to the one in Senci (Senayan City). Everyone should try it out. Its the best thing ever, its not like any other yoghurt. It tastes like heaven and I'm not talking shit. I ordered a twist (green tea and original yoghurt flavour) in medium size. The toppings I added were mango,green and red mochi.

While I was there, someone's phone got stolen and it was made into such a huge deal. Seems like the rumour that Senci has some phone-stealers lurking around its places was very true. From now on I am keeping my bag and my beloved phone (I love it for the content but I still very much hate the phone) real close to me that no one can ever steal it from me.

If you ever go to Senci you'll get to see just how many people uses the phone Blackberry. Everywhere I looked or turn there was always someone typing intensely into their Blackberyy. This is my dream phone I'm talking about. I've wanted it so bad and its pretty annoying to have to see everyone else having one except for me. Everyday I beg my parents to get me one and hopefully they will one day.

At 8 o'clock I will be over at my cousin's house doing a workout session with her again hahah. I will try enjoy it with some good music.

December3.

The day started off with me getting my hair cut. Before I went to the hairdresser's I've already made up my mind that I wanted to curl my hair and totally revamp my fringe.

When I got there, my hairdresser told me how much of a fuss it would be to have curly hair. She said I'd have to curl it everyday and I was one who could not do that. Yes, I'm a lazy ass but then again who can be bothered to curl their hair everyday? So I didn't end up getting curls but instead I had my fringe cut shorter and added layers on the top. Not exactly what I had in mind but it didn't turn out so bad.




I spent about a good three hours in the hairdressers and after that I went to this little pretty chapel. I got told to pray there by my parents and so I did. I asked and thanked God for everything and just spent the whole time in there praying. It was a pretty special chapel. For the very first time, I felt like such a religious person for a second there.

When I got home I got really boredd. I was real bored that I started playing on my little brother's DS. Who doesn't love Cooking Mama? A few hours later my cousin came over to my house. She brang me over to her house which was good because at home there was just too many disturbances.

We gossiped and talked and I also helped her out on her homework. I could not believe how much she had. I would die if I went to her school. She attends an international school and basically, I would be depressed and start cutting myself if I went there.

During the homework sessions, me and my cousin realised how fat were getting. We felt so fat that we spent almost an hour inside her gym. It was good. We burned fat and we have decided to continue that each and everyday for a good 2 months. We ran on the treadmill and did about 100 sit-ups. What can I say we are pretty desperate to lose some and you never know, after a couple of weeks we might have already lost all that fat.

December2.

DAY 2

I woke up really late today considering the late night I had last night.I woke up with the most painful headacher ever. What's wrong with me? Why do I get it all the time? I was trying not to take any medication for it because I get it very often and relies on medication to make me feel better. I'm not a drug addict even if you're starting to have a feeling that I am.

I don't have a plan today or even a destination to go to. But I do not want to stay home because my days are numbered remember and I take each day as a mission to do some serious shopping. I'm writing all of this on my N73 mobile as I had no time for the computer today and transferring them when I have the time to. Talking about my mobile, it is the most crappiest, shittiest, you just wanna throw it in the bin type of mobile.
1.the camera doesn't even want to work
2.the message "Memory Low. Delete some data." keeps on coming up on the screen and I've clearly deleted all of my text messages and picture already.
3.it is sooooo slow, just to unlock it and get it to go onto the main menu takes about 3 minutes.
4.i've dropped it too many times just to show how much I hate it.
just don't get this phone or you'll regret it.

Anyways here is an excerpt that I started writing last night from my book which is still untitled:



"We've always been together. Just the four of us. How we came together was not a question that could be asked. We were born to be bffs coming from the same family. We were cousins that could not be put apart no matter what. We loved each other to death and that is how it will stay for the rest of our lives......"

p.s my mum calls me fat hahah. isn't that jst stupid. im trying real hard to lose some and you're not helping me one bit mum. every word that comes out from your mouth always turn out negative. its better if you never said it in the beginning. i mean i dont even care what you say but you should just keep it to yourself. (an hour later i feel guilty and i feel like i shouldn't really be writing this).

December1.

The 1st of December marks the beginning of my holiday in my sweet hometown Jakarta. I'll be spending a good 2 months in here which is not a lot of time at all considering that I always spend my other 10 months in Perth where school is such a bitch. So pretty much my days are numbered here. Not as in death-wise.haha.

My plan here is to shop, shop and do more shopping. I wouldn't consider myself a shopaholic seeing that even though I spend a lot of time doing that I end up with nothing at all after all of that intense browsing. But, I do LOVE shopping and I can't think of anything else better to do other than that. That's just me bragging on about my hobby so now lets recount my first day in here.

DAY 1

Well, what did I do today? I woke up this morning by the sound of my mobile ringtone which is something rather annoying ( just the thing to awake me from my sleep) and then I got ready and went shopping at PIM (Pondok Indah Mall). I looked around and found pretty much nothing. However, I did buy some stationaries and just to be precise they were highlighters in every colour,black/blue/red pens,a funky stapler and a black eraser (best eraser ever). I know its a bit too early to be getting stuff for school now but I couldn't help it. Besides, now that I've gotten it over and done with I can tick it off from my list of things to buy in here.

In the afternoon, well more like later that nite, I went a paid a visit to my cousin Priscilla's house which was basically 1 minute away from mines. We chatted for a veryyyyyy long time and we didn't call it quits until at least 1 AM in the morning. I could of slept over or stayed longer but she had school the morning after. During our conversation the topic of LOVE came up. This topic seems to always pop up lately. And I know exactly why. But that's not for everyone to know. Its just between me, my sister and her. Unless you really want to know, you have to be really close to me. Like you're a part of me.



Well so yea we talked about LOVE and we learned so much stuff from each other's experiences that I decided to write a book about it which is still in the proccess and could be done pretty soon if I'm determined enough.

I had trouble sleeping at night because after that big convo I had a lot of things on my mind. And I mean a lottt.

No. 1

this is where i'll bring you into my complicated life apart from the bitching and bragging, its pretty much just like anyone else's life.